-hi.

4/9/26 6.27am

-i dont know why im doing this. i guess to put my thoughts down. i hate who i am.

-i had fun today. i enjoyed spending time with my friends.

-i cut myself in my car outside of their apartment while they were eating food. im not sure why.

-i didnt even cut deep. dull boxcutter sucks.

-i was worried i would feel like a third wheel. but i didnt. that was nice.

-i looked like such a man compared to them. it was very depressing.

-thats all i want to write for now. im very tired and dizzy. bye.

4/12/26 4.19am

-entry erased 4/13/26 1.44am

4/13/26 1.19am

-lexapro. adderall. redbulls. oh my god. im shaking. fuckfuckfuckfuck.

4/27/26 1.47am

-FUCKKKKK URGHHHH.

4/28/26 2.26am

-i am a fucking disgrace of a human. i wasnt meant to be human. what is wrong with me?

-i like her. why did i freeze up? i dont think she knows me.

-the person that i am when im not thinking. im fucking insufferable.

-she would fucking hate me.